LocationAlhambra , CA
As a kid, I remember watching a movie called “Meet the Robinsons.” It was a retro-futuristic film centered around a child genius who travels to the future and meets his family. Despite the many plot holes, it had a certain charm. It was heartwarming, with a unique art style at the time, and a setting inspired by science fiction in the 50s. Beyond all the spectacle, however, was one central message: Keep moving forward. A fairly good message, in my opinion, but one I find myself struggling with.
It’s hard to move forward when you can’t see anything ahead. I have been feeling a sense of unease, uncertainty, and even dread at the idea of the near future. We’ve been told constantly that this is the most important time of our lives, and that pressure is fairly overwhelming. The quarantine has only given me more time to dwell on such thoughts, and it is terrifying. It constantly feels like I am not doing anything with the extra time, and that is only causing more stress than I wanted.
I didn’t just look into my future though, I also started reflecting on my past more than ever. I have made some friends in high school, people that I care about and will miss dearly. The original plan was to spend the next few months enjoying their company and saying goodbyes, then school shut down and we are all stuck at home. Now that most people I know are graduating, I’ll probably never see most of them ever again.
More than anything, however, my experience as a student under COVID-19 was one of revelation. Everything began hitting me like a train. The pandemic exposed the corrupt and systemic problems within our government and society, the isolation revealed how much people truly meant to me, and college gave me a realization of how doomed this generation is.
Max is an editorial intern for the Alhambra Source. He enjoys many different genres of music, and is very politically active.
Previous New Normal post:
The Alhambra Source is excited to launch a new community-based series based on our collective, yet varied, pandemic experience.
In short, we want you to tell us what you’ve been doing for the last two months or how you’re experiencing the new normal, in the form of video, audio, photography or short text.